Saturday, June 21, 2008
MOVED to livejournal. Peer pressure is a powerful thing.
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;8:16 AM
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Jane says i should update because every time she checks my blog, its still chinese new year. So i'm updating. Well. Our team MADE IT TO THE SEMI FINALS. MUAHAHAHA. In your face everyone who thought we couldn't make it. We drew jj, lost to vj, but WON tj and ij. Semis will be played next wed i think, probably against saj and i hope we win. Now that we've made it this far, we can't stop here.
I'm pretty busy this week.
Mon: 2.4 + Training
Tue: Training
Wed: Training
Thur: Break
Friday: 5 Stations + Training
Saturday: Training
Sunday: Break
I'm not complaining though. Even if i had training everyday. If that's what it takes to win, i'll be more than willing to give every minute of my time. I don't ever want to step down. I love playing soccer and i dread to think about going to school without my shoebag, which although sounds extremely gay, will suck terribly.
;9:20 PM
Sunday, February 10, 2008
Chinese New Year is over. No more gorging, sleeping and hongbaos. Oh well, it was fun while it lasted. Didn't go anywhere much this year because my grandfather passed and well.. Although i don't talk much about it. I really do miss him. Now that he's not around, he won't be here to bring stuff over when we're sick. Now that he's not around, our family portrait will be missing a person. We used to celebrate at his house every year, but this year it was celebrated here. The reason is obvious, though no one openly said it. Chinese New Year just isn't the same without him.
I went to my father's friend's house and i've decided that that's the house i want in future. Huge, with a pond, and a swimming pool right outside the window. I want to be rich. WAHAHA. I want to have a helicopter and a yacht. I want to travel the world. I think i'd have to be REALLY REALLY rich. I realized my ambitions have changed as i've MATURED. (: I wanted to be a policeman, then a firefighter, then a film director, then a astronaut, then a lawyer, then a pilot, then a backpacker, then a scriptwriter and now i want to be an archaeologist. Seems kind of fun. But i can't see myself holding a brush and fiddling with dirt when i grow up. It's probably because i've been watching jurrassic park and i keep thinking that i'll dig up dinosaurs in future. That's almost certainly not how it's going to be though. I'll probably be digging at old plates. :/ Whatever i eventually become, i hope and pray its not boring. I'd rather have fun at the expense of wealth. (That's my impractical side talking.)
I've decided to let you be, which is why i've chosen to shut up about it. It's not because i don't care, but it's because i hate to see you so upset about it. Whatever you choose, whatever it may be, i'll respect it. Just make sure you won't regret it.
Back to work then.
;7:54 AM
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
yiying says: its the same thing
ghislene; says:
i cooler
ghislene; says:
neh neh ni boo boo
yiying says:
HAHAHAAAAHHAHAHHAHAHAH
Ghislene is childish.
My back pain is back again, and i feel old. As stupid as it sounds, i'm still going to go for trainings hoping that it'll just get better with time. My performance recently have been really disappointing and i know i won't feel right until i've fixed it. I can't leave things as they are. Nobody knows the stress that i feel. I feel so pressured at trainings, it's taken the fun out of the soccer. When i see the others' improving, i'm afraid, because everyone is leaping forward while i'm left behind. My deepest fear is my inability.
All i want is their approval.
;6:28 AM
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Road Race. Ran 3.3km. Soccer girls did well. Atlas became champions. Roller Blading with Jane. (Hilarious.) Craved for something cold so we had B&J at White Sands. Intended to go TM for sushi but both felt too lazy to get off the train. Lunch FINALLY at 2.30, Teppanyaki (I think that's how to spell it) at Terminal 3. Wanted to play with the sky train but someone didn't let me. Home. "Fainted" on my bed. :/
;11:26 PM
I think that i'm ostentatious and thinking about it now, makes me feel all stupid. I want to be me. Like how i'm like with cass or syuhaidah or my secondary school friends. Completely at ease. Not afraid to cry when i'm sad or make a big fool out of myself. But somehow i can't. If you think i'm quiet, then you don't know me at all.
The team is so split. It's so obvious, and you're blind if you don't see it. I don't think it's bad, because we do come together when need be. I just think it's weird.
I wonder if they're thinking what i think they're thinking. I wonder if i'm thinking too much about everything. I wonder if i should just ignore what i think they think and start caring about what i think. Think. Think. Think. I think my period is coming, because i'm thinking too much. URGH.
We had to take a personality test for school and well this was part of my personality type analysis. "..They might seem reserved, and even shy, on the inside they are anything but reserved.. They care deeply-indeed, passionately-about a few special persons or a favorite cause.." I thought it was quite true. The me being a write/poet part. HAHAHAA. Hilarious. NEVER EVER.
;6:00 AM
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Right now i'm so damn fustrated with myself. What coach said, well it keeps bugging me. I know there's truth in it. It's obvious even to me. But him having to say it, just confirms everything. It feels terrible. I'm not even sure of myself anymore and i'm afraid that i won't be able to do as well as what is expected of me. But i'll try harder because i need to prove it wrong.
People keep surprising me. And in a good way. With the littlest gestures i'm already feeling like the luckiest person ever. To see their concern when i'm totally bummed, well.. it really means alot.
;11:29 PM
Sunday, November 04, 2007
Wednesday - Class Gathering
Since i left school at 7, i reached at 8. By the time i got there, everyone was done eating, so i had lychee ice blended for dinner. Uhhuh. And then we ATTEMPTED to walk to heeren, i think? Let me tell you, we stopped a million times. When some people wanted to leave, the ice cream place, the halloween people place, the traffic light place, the NYDC place. It was damn sad, because my class gathering was spent umm.. going all the way to far east to buy bubble tea and walk for about an hour (without getting anywhere) before taking the bus home. P: I had another class gathering that day but i missed 4/6 people too much. Though we did absolutely nothing, seeing and talking to them was good enough.
Thursday - Slept till 2pm
Best day of my holidays so far.
Friday -Training
Saturday - Friendly (0-2)
Feel like ranting about the game but shall not.. They say that everything happens on the pitch, stays on it, but sometimes.. rr.. I shall try to keep evil thoughts away from my mind. Meditate, Yoga.. Calm thoughts of Barney.. Arsenal drew Man Utd. %^@#!. But it was a great game. I shall start loving Gallas even though i think he's ugly.
Sunday - Soccer Matches (3rd Overall)
It's fun to play with guys because they are always in control, and you can always depend on them to save your butt when you make a mistake. We won (2-0), drew twice (1-1, 1-1) and lost (2-1). It's funny though. When guys foul guys, they get all agitated. However, when girls foul guys, they instead ask if i'm alright. Not that i'm complaining or anything. (:
Monday - Training again a little later.
I'm so damn tired with 4 consecutive days of soccer. My knee seems to be taking the damage because my left hurts when i walk. Maybe i'll take a break. But then again, i'm too addicted to soccer.
;6:28 PM
